Mucus, phlegm, rubber flow
Let me out, let me go
I want to do what I know
I feel this need to shed cargo
I see it's time, time to grow
Through this rain I feel rainbows
Dear EveryBeauty,
You must be wondering "why all the moves?" That's what I've been saying when I moved the second time! :P But once I set aside my victim mentality of "Why me?", I stood back and looked at the big picture!
Before I go into that, you could also be wondering "What do I do?", "What's the problem", "How can I afford all the moves?" To answer your questions, I will tell you three things I am not and two things I am. :) One - I don't have a regular "job" Two - I am not on IE Three - I am not a senior citizen. One - I do have amazing parents Two - I am a very highly sensitive/empathic soul (sensitive to sound). I'll leave you to figure out the riddle! :P
Through all the moving around I haven't really had many chances to form deep, meaningful relationships (excluding one). Moving too many times, puts a damper in that endeavour. But moving has taught me many, many lessons about life, people in general, and about who I desire to be and who I am.
This might sound crazy, but I am quite happy will all the moves. It's shown me everything I do not want so I know what I DO want/need in my life. As I desire to be a counsellor to children in the future I believe this is helping me to learn lessons so I can lead by example.
Before I stepped foot into the city of Kelowna my goal for Kelowna was to get involved with the music scene. Unknowingly, when I moved on July 4th 2014, the Cosmos/Universe/Angels had a whole 'nother plan and threw a few daggers in my flow to help me to grow in ways I never knew possible.
After many moves, I am now here, living in a basement (not basement suite) with no door separating the downstairs/upstairs, healing from my ankle injury and am destined to move to hometown Salmon Arm for more reasons than one.
I'm writing this blog to share me! Who/what is Ahn all about? To be vulnerable once again to the naked eye. To know that once I become vulnerable to friends, family and strangers I face this fear again of feeling good enough. Good enough to share who I am and not be afraid to be me.
I know in the past I've deleted many blogs, looking back I soo wish I kept them, but in my naive mind I deleted them as many times I've moved. I DO feel in this blog (Ahn Loveness), I'm going to be very transparent and hold back nothing. So I do feel this will stick. As I'm incorporating not just "food/weight loss/health", I'm adding in my spiritual side (chakras/auras/energy,etc) as that is a part of me. Exploring and expressing my emotional side too.
I've created a Youtube account (my anxiety levels just spiked) in my journey to a healthier/mindful me. Just type in AhnLoveness and I'll come up on Youtube. Don't have anything up yet, officially. Need to get my weight, measurements and food plan up. I have used food to "cope" and to emotionally protect myself from other people's energies. I go more in-depth in my first blog http://authenticahn.blogspot.ca/2017/02/how-deep-empathy-is.html if you'd like to read, feel free. <3
That's all my Lovelies.
Take care,
Ahn xxoo
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Problems are only opportunities in work clothes. ~ Henry J. Kaiser
Word of the Day
Coze
Noun
1) a friendly talk; a chat.
2) to converse in a friendly way; chat.
