Valentine's Day

What a holiday this may seem
You may laugh, cry or scream
This is a time to show gratitude
Fully clothed or birthday nude
All depends on the magnitude  

Dear EveryBeauty,

Today is the holiday highlighting all the people who are in a relationship with their significant other. And for some, it can mean a very sweet, comforting day/holiday and/or for some the worst, uncomfortable, reminder they are "lonely/single".

But let me put a little spin on it for you all...

What is the one relationship that is ALWAYS and FOREVER in your life? No matter what happens....
You! Your gorgeous self. You are always with yourself. 

So why not, take the time to treat yourself to treats you would treat your "significant other". Love yourself the way you want your partner to treat you. If your love language is words, tell yourself loving, comforting, honouring, respectful words (novel, journal, post-it, tattoo!) If your love language is gifts, treat yourself to some red roses, bubble bath, face mask, etc! Whichever you choose, it's your time to love yourself and know that you matter! :) 

For me right now, I'm single and I enjoy myself. I enjoy taking care of myself, focusing on myself and treating myself to loving words. As my love language are words/gifts. Treating myself to, red roses as I love red roses,  just a couple. Yes it is nice to have some special someone, but to make the best out of a situation, I'm turning the love towards me. "No one can love me the way I love myself" if you know what i mean! ;) 

We can define Valentine's Day however we see fit. Enjoy the time/the freedom of singleton town! It won't last forever as I plan on having a husband in the future. Just enjoying what I have now and that is me, the beautiful me that I can be! The best love you can give is to yourself, so don't fret if you don't have any special someone, just turn that love to yourself, it's very rewarding! :) 

I've grown soo much and I've learned soo much and the only person that chooses to grow and learn is ME, so I congratulate and "spank" myself for all my hard work! <3 

Honour and LOVE  your souls and show gratitude towards yourselves. As you have a mission/a statement/a purpose to fulfill in this life and unconditionally loving yourself is the best step towards your purpose! 

Luv you all!

Take care,
Ahn xoxo

"Love yourself. It is important to stay positive because beauty comes from the inside out." ~ Jenn Proske

Word of the Day

Billet–doux

(bil-ey-doo)

noun  

:  a love letter

Without Routine

The dark abyss that lies here
No foundation for me to step down
But the vision is so very clear 
I let go of all attachments that surround 

Dear EveryBeauty,

Yes, I am a woman of liking routine and consistency. I love knowing what's going to happen, how's it's going to happen, WHEN it's going to happen and with whom. But through all the moving around these past few years (from home to home), I have found that I AM still alive and positive. Yes there are still downsides for me living with strangers but it's helped me to detach and allow and not be such a stressed-out control freak. Because unfortunately and fortunately, you cannot control other people, if you could, life wouldn't be the way it is with freewill, etc. But YOU CAN control how you respond to the circumstances of your environment.  It's a very powerful lesson, I've become chummy with through the years. No, it's not easy but it's a great growth spurt. :) 

One of the things that I learned the other day that was quite interesting was the word "re-acting", like a knee-jerk reaction to something or someone. But "re-sponding" is a little different I believe, it's a step back, take it in, breathe, and respond. Taking "responsibility" for your actions. It's funny because the word respond is very similar to responsibility. Just a little tid-bit I wanted add, because I think it's nifty. 

So getting back to the topic at hand ... Routine.... I never thought of myself as a routine type of person, I thought I was a very flexible person, but turns out from my life experience that I do like some foundation to my daily life, I do like predicability to count on. But I believe the Universe has shown me that, is teaching me that you truly can only control your own internal environment, how your eyes look into the world outside. And your internal environment reflects out towards the external environment. But there are many layers to this topic of internal environment influencing the outer environment because that isn't always the case as your environment can change to help you, challenge you and to build you, etc. And environment can mean many things; people, places, things, etc. Won't go too deep into this... 

So any-who...

For someone who is very autistic with extreme special needs, routine is vital to their life. Which I can completely understand, their brains can't handle the stress of a changed environment, something that they do not know and never have known. And I thought at one time I was autistic with extreme special needs, but turns out I just think differently than the rest of the "common" crowd. My characteristics are not qualified enough to be on the wide spectrum of autism. Which I have to count my blessings as having autism is a big challenge. I have enough challenges without autism. <3 :P 

What helps me the most is writing and singing right now as I'm recovering from an ankle injury. Thankfully it's been months, and I'm off crutches and out of the air cast, I'm just now in this ankle brace. :) But the months I was recovering (getting around on my hands and knees) TOTALLY switched up my normal routine to say the least! Not being able to exercise, get my sweat on has been and was a challenge. But the body is an immaculate specimen that adapts and changes with what life throws out. I'm definitely considering doing Pilates again, Mat Pilates. I was lying in bed last night (FULL MOON!) and I had a internal vision of doing mat pilates. Just popped into my head. Guess that is what my body is telling me to do now. My body is craving Mat Pilates. :) 

*Thankful I can walk!!!!!!!! :D 

The moral of this post is that living without a routine has helped me to truly detach and allow but still know that routine is sacred to me and helps me stay sane. I'll be moving into my own space in a few months from now, as my ankle is fully healed (thank the Angels, Cosmos, Universe)! I can make my own routine in my own living space! It will be like coming home! Super stoked!! :) 

You all are amazing! Keep being the beautiful you! Embrace your amazing self and shine your inner light! Thank you so much for reading this far!

Take care Lovelies,
Ahn xxoo

"Believe you can and you’re halfway there."
– Theodore Roosevelt          

"Ohh" <3

Word of the Day

Simpatico

ADJECTIVE

1.) (of a person) likeable and easy to get on with

How Deep Empathy Is

The dirt that dredges beneath this land
I can feel the pulse I can understand
This heavy mind that you carry around
I can't help but take on the worry and drown


Hey EveryBeauty,

I can't tell you how many blogs I have gone through, deleted and created, created and deleted. All of my blogs were based on one aspect of my life. They never seemed to stick or fit. Never considering that my life changes, evolves and grows in more aspects than one. My mind grows, expands, learns, creates, matures, etc. And in the process of changing and evolving I believe I knew in my heart (my wise soul) that I needed to deleted those blogs because they wouldn't ever fit in the long run.

So starting this blog out with one of my deepest gifts I have, I truly believe is a great starting point into my blog life!

These past couple of years, I've been living in other peoples homes. Living in what they call their home. Their sacred space that they love to relax and just BE. And what I have found is that I NEED MY SPACE. I never knew that I needed my own space to unwind and decompress from peoples energies from outside of the home. As I am me, I needed to experience what I didn't need, to know in my soul what I TRULY do need. I am not saying in any means to say I HATE these peoples, these people came into myself to HELP me see what I need most in my life. What I hold sacred in my soul. What recharges me and helps me stay sane in this holographic world of life.

Getting back to empathy, I am right now "on vacation" away from my "living quarters" and staying in my aunt's apartment while she's away on vacation. I needed to "vaca" to have my own space (as I am currently living in one room in a house) and decipher what is mine and what is somebody else's energy.  Just sitting here in the dining table it is SOO CLEAR that I truly do feel other people's emotions/energies. Because.... I have so much going for me, I feel/know that my future is soo bright, so big that it makes my heart warm and happy that when I suddenly feel depressed and down, I KNOW it is not mine. It is the energy of the people above me, or below me or to the side of me (as I'm in an apartment right now).

Living the life of an empath is very eye opening! It's comforting but also very isolating. You feel these heavy feelings that you can relate to but then feel isolated because the majority of the people you work/live with don't quite understand unless YOU ALSO are on empath. Thankfully I know I have friends that are empaths but when you are LIVING with people who aren't empath's it's a rough road to steer. So as an empath, my weight has fluctuated up and down and it's because I've taken on other people's energies without knowing. But through the years of getting psychic readings, counselling I know the tools and signs of what is mine and what are others. And now I do not do drugs, alcohol or even sugar/MSG/GMO, I'm quite clean and clear to sense and KNOW the separation of feelings/emotions. I've never done drugs but I've had my fair share of alcohol (which I quite a year ago).

Not going into too much detail but food has been one of my coping mechanisms for dealing with intense/heavy emotions of other people. I used to eat a BUTT load of refined sugar, dairy, MSG, wheat/gluten, etc to drown out the feelings (that I took on) and through a course of some life-altering experiences I've quit them all and my life has really treated me well. Not to say it's easy, but very life rewarding.

I know that the earth, animals are EXTREMELY important to me in too many ways to count! Living in a city I've learned that country life (farm life) is the life I live/love within my heart-of-hearts! I love digging into the dirt, the smell of manure, the energy of nature, cats, crystals, dogs, horses, pigs, goats, trees, bushes, lakes, mountains, etc! I'm a very nature living girl! :) Helps me connect to Mother Nature as we ALL are a part of her, if we know it or not. It is beautiful, orgasmic and peaceful place! Why bottle yourself into a square metal box in a metal environment, energetically separated from our connection to the one thing that's helping us live and breathe every single moment of every single day?

Anyways...

I know there are many empaths out there that struggle through their gifts and I just want to say, you are here for a reason. You were born here to transform the world to a world that no one knew was ever possible. You were here to build a foundation that helps your children, your grandchildren stay on Mother Earth and flourish in the magic of living in this Universe. You are here to share your gift, and help souls help themselves. You matter!! :)

You go through your trials and tribulations so you sandpaper yourself into a shinny pearl to show how other people can shine like a pearl they've always been.

You are NOT alone! I am here for you, I'm your tribe! <3 You are beautiful for being you!

Luv you for all that you are!

Take care Lovelies,
Ahn xxoo

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"Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better." ~ Albert Einstein

Word of the Night

Nexus

Noun

1) Connection, link also: casual link

2) A connected group or series

3) Centre, focus