I can feel the pulse I can understand
This heavy mind that you carry around
I can't help but take on the worry and drown
Hey EveryBeauty,
I can't tell you how many blogs I have gone through, deleted and created, created and deleted. All of my blogs were based on one aspect of my life. They never seemed to stick or fit. Never considering that my life changes, evolves and grows in more aspects than one. My mind grows, expands, learns, creates, matures, etc. And in the process of changing and evolving I believe I knew in my heart (my wise soul) that I needed to deleted those blogs because they wouldn't ever fit in the long run.
So starting this blog out with one of my deepest gifts I have, I truly believe is a great starting point into my blog life!
These past couple of years, I've been living in other peoples homes. Living in what they call their home. Their sacred space that they love to relax and just BE. And what I have found is that I NEED MY SPACE. I never knew that I needed my own space to unwind and decompress from peoples energies from outside of the home. As I am me, I needed to experience what I didn't need, to know in my soul what I TRULY do need. I am not saying in any means to say I HATE these peoples, these people came into myself to HELP me see what I need most in my life. What I hold sacred in my soul. What recharges me and helps me stay sane in this holographic world of life.
Getting back to empathy, I am right now "on vacation" away from my "living quarters" and staying in my aunt's apartment while she's away on vacation. I needed to "vaca" to have my own space (as I am currently living in one room in a house) and decipher what is mine and what is somebody else's energy. Just sitting here in the dining table it is SOO CLEAR that I truly do feel other people's emotions/energies. Because.... I have so much going for me, I feel/know that my future is soo bright, so big that it makes my heart warm and happy that when I suddenly feel depressed and down, I KNOW it is not mine. It is the energy of the people above me, or below me or to the side of me (as I'm in an apartment right now).
Living the life of an empath is very eye opening! It's comforting but also very isolating. You feel these heavy feelings that you can relate to but then feel isolated because the majority of the people you work/live with don't quite understand unless YOU ALSO are on empath. Thankfully I know I have friends that are empaths but when you are LIVING with people who aren't empath's it's a rough road to steer. So as an empath, my weight has fluctuated up and down and it's because I've taken on other people's energies without knowing. But through the years of getting psychic readings, counselling I know the tools and signs of what is mine and what are others. And now I do not do drugs, alcohol or even sugar/MSG/GMO, I'm quite clean and clear to sense and KNOW the separation of feelings/emotions. I've never done drugs but I've had my fair share of alcohol (which I quite a year ago).
Not going into too much detail but food has been one of my coping mechanisms for dealing with intense/heavy emotions of other people. I used to eat a BUTT load of refined sugar, dairy, MSG, wheat/gluten, etc to drown out the feelings (that I took on) and through a course of some life-altering experiences I've quit them all and my life has really treated me well. Not to say it's easy, but very life rewarding.
I know that the earth, animals are EXTREMELY important to me in too many ways to count! Living in a city I've learned that country life (farm life) is the life I live/love within my heart-of-hearts! I love digging into the dirt, the smell of manure, the energy of nature, cats, crystals, dogs, horses, pigs, goats, trees, bushes, lakes, mountains, etc! I'm a very nature living girl! :) Helps me connect to Mother Nature as we ALL are a part of her, if we know it or not. It is beautiful, orgasmic and peaceful place! Why bottle yourself into a square metal box in a metal environment, energetically separated from our connection to the one thing that's helping us live and breathe every single moment of every single day?
Anyways...
I know there are many empaths out there that struggle through their gifts and I just want to say, you are here for a reason. You were born here to transform the world to a world that no one knew was ever possible. You were here to build a foundation that helps your children, your grandchildren stay on Mother Earth and flourish in the magic of living in this Universe. You are here to share your gift, and help souls help themselves. You matter!! :)
You go through your trials and tribulations so you sandpaper yourself into a shinny pearl to show how other people can shine like a pearl they've always been.
You are NOT alone! I am here for you, I'm your tribe! <3 You are beautiful for being you!
Luv you for all that you are!
Take care Lovelies,
Ahn xxoo
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"Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better." ~ Albert Einstein
Word of the Night
Nexus
Noun
1) Connection, link also: casual link
2) A connected group or series
3) Centre, focus
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