No foundation for me to step down
But the vision is so very clear
I let go of all attachments that surround
Dear EveryBeauty,
Yes, I am a woman of liking routine and consistency. I love knowing what's going to happen, how's it's going to happen, WHEN it's going to happen and with whom. But through all the moving around these past few years (from home to home), I have found that I AM still alive and positive. Yes there are still downsides for me living with strangers but it's helped me to detach and allow and not be such a stressed-out control freak. Because unfortunately and fortunately, you cannot control other people, if you could, life wouldn't be the way it is with freewill, etc. But YOU CAN control how you respond to the circumstances of your environment. It's a very powerful lesson, I've become chummy with through the years. No, it's not easy but it's a great growth spurt. :)
One of the things that I learned the other day that was quite interesting was the word "re-acting", like a knee-jerk reaction to something or someone. But "re-sponding" is a little different I believe, it's a step back, take it in, breathe, and respond. Taking "responsibility" for your actions. It's funny because the word respond is very similar to responsibility. Just a little tid-bit I wanted add, because I think it's nifty.
So getting back to the topic at hand ... Routine.... I never thought of myself as a routine type of person, I thought I was a very flexible person, but turns out from my life experience that I do like some foundation to my daily life, I do like predicability to count on. But I believe the Universe has shown me that, is teaching me that you truly can only control your own internal environment, how your eyes look into the world outside. And your internal environment reflects out towards the external environment. But there are many layers to this topic of internal environment influencing the outer environment because that isn't always the case as your environment can change to help you, challenge you and to build you, etc. And environment can mean many things; people, places, things, etc. Won't go too deep into this...
So any-who...
For someone who is very autistic with extreme special needs, routine is vital to their life. Which I can completely understand, their brains can't handle the stress of a changed environment, something that they do not know and never have known. And I thought at one time I was autistic with extreme special needs, but turns out I just think differently than the rest of the "common" crowd. My characteristics are not qualified enough to be on the wide spectrum of autism. Which I have to count my blessings as having autism is a big challenge. I have enough challenges without autism. <3 :P
What helps me the most is writing and singing right now as I'm recovering from an ankle injury. Thankfully it's been months, and I'm off crutches and out of the air cast, I'm just now in this ankle brace. :) But the months I was recovering (getting around on my hands and knees) TOTALLY switched up my normal routine to say the least! Not being able to exercise, get my sweat on has been and was a challenge. But the body is an immaculate specimen that adapts and changes with what life throws out. I'm definitely considering doing Pilates again, Mat Pilates. I was lying in bed last night (FULL MOON!) and I had a internal vision of doing mat pilates. Just popped into my head. Guess that is what my body is telling me to do now. My body is craving Mat Pilates. :)
*Thankful I can walk!!!!!!!! :D
The moral of this post is that living without a routine has helped me to truly detach and allow but still know that routine is sacred to me and helps me stay sane. I'll be moving into my own space in a few months from now, as my ankle is fully healed (thank the Angels, Cosmos, Universe)! I can make my own routine in my own living space! It will be like coming home! Super stoked!! :)
You all are amazing! Keep being the beautiful you! Embrace your amazing self and shine your inner light! Thank you so much for reading this far!
Take care Lovelies,
Ahn xxoo
"Believe you can and you’re halfway there."
– Theodore Roosevelt
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